I’m back! Why I stopped blogging.

Hi everyone, It’s nice to be back blogging again, to be honest I’ve really missed it and I would like to thank the people who follow my blog for hanging around and sticking with me.

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Writing this blog is a big part of my life and it’s a place I can get everything off my chest and help others, however I came to a place where I really wasn’t happy and I was starting to struggle with a thing in my life. over the course of a few months I started to struggle more and more and I eventually ended up having a mini breakdown. Now looking back on all it, I can say it all steamed from my leg ulcer going bad and causing more pain.

I started to get more pain in my ulcer, which also made my tendonitis flare up which made it difficult to walk for any amount of time. I eventually got my appointment to see the plastic surgeon and they tried a new dressing on my leg ( I will be writing up another post to explain more about this dressing) Long-story-cut-short I had a bad reaction to this dressing and it really affected my leg badly.

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The first signs that I was starting to struggle were not being able to keep on top the housework like I had before. With this leg ulcer, three children and four dogs, I can’t keep my house as tidy as I would like but I don’t do a bad job however I couldn’t keep up with the mess and my normal routines just were not happening. It seemed no matter how much I tidied up every room would still look a mess. I can get quite stressed out when my house is a mess.

Another sign was my lack of patience I had with my family, I found myself getting irritated easily at silly things and I was arguing with the hubby more and more. It wasn’t their fault I was feeling so crap yet I kept taking it out on them.

Also I wasn’t sleeping very well, I would go to bed and then end up getting up again, either because my leg hurt or I just couldn’t get settled. This was happening around four nights a week and the lack of sleep was affecting everything I was doing.

I was really struggling but I just kept telling myself , it will get better, I can push through this and get back on track … Until one day, two of our dogs were playing together and running around, then one of them ran into my bad leg at the same time I was carrying a cup of coffee and it went flying. I ended up just sitting on the floor and busting into tears from the pain and the fact that the coffee had gone all over me and the floor.

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Thankfully at the time my children were in bed and my hubby was out. It was then that I knew I needed to get some help and tell someone how I was feeling also I needed to get an appointment to see my doctor.

I spoke to my mum and my hubby and told them how I had been feeling and that I was struggling, together we came up with a few changes I needed make and they would help me get back to normal.

These were some of the things I needed to change/ get sorted.

  • Go to see and doctor and tell them how I’m feeling.
  • Get my pain medication back onto a regular schedule.
  • Stop trying to do everything on my own.
  • Change or get back to my normal routines.
  • Stop blogging for a while and concentrate on me.

smiley-2989144_640With these few changes and the help from doctors, my hubby and my mum I am now feeling pretty much back to normal. The doctors gave me some antidepressants and referred me to a councillor also by getting my pain medication onto a better schedule meant I could start getting more sleep which also resulted in more things falling back into place. As the days go on I’m feeling better and better and I’m smiling again.

I missed writing my blog but I’m glad I took a step back to get myself sorted and get my life back on track. Now I feel ready to start writing again but I’m not going to be posting three times a week like I did before, it was stressing me out trying to get everything done in time so now I am going to be posting once a week and if I’m having a good week maybe I will try to fit another one in. I am determined not to go back to the way I was, I am determined not to let myself slip back into depression.

Thank you again for all the readers that have stuck by me and carried on following my blog.

xx

 

 

2 thoughts on “I’m back! Why I stopped blogging.

  1. I wondered where you had gone. I’m glad you’re back. I’m sorry for what you’re going through and I wish there was a magic wand to make it disappear for good. Hope the new dressing is doing some good. xx

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